life is progressing.

I graduated.

This is weird.

On to grad school.

5 more years.

What am I thinking?

my neighbors probably think I'm a whore...

I feel like my neighbors only see me when I am with my roommate or my guy friends. The funny thing is they will see me through out the day leaving with different people, or going out with different people on different nights. 

I find this amusing because I am the least whorish person I know.

I watch planet earth today. I think I like planet earth and law & order a bit too much. I am either thinking about how cool the earth is or suspecting someone of being a serial killer/ molester who is covering up a deep family secret in order to inherit millions from my step step cousins. 

Apparently I am growing up... or something

this week I have come to the realization that I have to become an adult.

My acceptance to graduate school has truly rocked my world. I have to get over my undergrad life; the ability to plan my days exactly how I want them. Hell, I might have to get a REAL job. 

Additionally, I am questioning the necessity of psychology. In saying that, I feel that if the community, church, and friends were to make themselves readily available, and present a non-judgmental stance, the nation would be much more mentally stable. But since the populous as a whole has done an awful job at caring and listening to its counterparts, I will have a future career. My job could be the product of negligence. 

Multiplicity

The movie Multiplicity starring Michael Keaton is quite humorous, and I wish that I could do the same thing that he does. A lot of my problems could be solved if I could clone myself multiple times.  

Ponderings while on the ski lift

I forgot that it is socially acceptable to wear pig tails if you're on the slopes.... but it should not be. Pig tails are for young girls, like 11 and under, not 24 year old boarders with a beanie and matching pants. 

How safe is it to drink and ski/ snow board? Should that be illegal? I saw plenty of empty bottles, my favorite the jagger dropped perfectly in the snow.

How many people fall off the ski lift? basically, that would suck to happen. 

Even your superficial raps is super official.

Today is the first time in a long time that I actually listened to the lyrics in songs. 

I have been listening to so much rap lately. My best friend makes beats and I have found myself being entranced by the simplicity of rap songs, yet the complexity of the lyrics.  I love the witty sayings from Kanye and Wheezy. My favorite quotes are "If a stripper named Porsche and you get tips from many men, then your fat friend her nickname is Minivan" Kanye  and "On the court I love sports that's why I play my bitches cuz I got game. Lil Wayne. 

This morning I was working on a paper and decided that listening to Lupe's "The Cool" was not conducive to my papers progress soI put a play list that I made years ago. I started to listen to the lyrics of these songs, and for 5 songs in a row I felt like I could relate. It was like my thoughts were being sung by someone else. It was eerie.

This is funny because I can't relate to the majority of the rap songs, but songs about relationships and breaking up really hit home. How pathetic am I?

I am just gonna bank on this emotional feeling correlating with my 3 hours of sleep.

I gave in...

after spending much time mocking those who blog, I've given in. Thanks Nate.

I spent the majority of my last night being the only sober person among a bunch of silly wasted friends. Side note: I think I am the only person in the world that still uses the word silly.

Any ways, its so weird to be in a room full of people and feeling like you are on a whole other page. It was a "Garden State" moment that lasted the whole night. I am not saying I did not have a good time. But I was able to think for hours on what has been going on in my life (the only other time I really think is when I run. I've screwed my knee up so running hasn't been happening much). Main point: I really appreciated this alone [but not alone] time.